My God Is Bigger Than My Hurt

When a four year relationship ends, there’s always the hope of it coming back. You hope for that person you spent so much time with because it’s what is most comfortable. But Jesus cannot take you somewhere new if you keep running back to what’s most comfortable. 

Nothing about going through a season of heartbreak is easy. Although Christ fills me with joy, it still hurts. I have peace, but it still hurts. I have grace, but it still hurts. I have the most supportive, encouraging friends ever, but it still hurts. I have an extraordinary God who loves me more than anyone ever could, but it still hurts. I have been angry with God and I have praised Him, but it still hurts. What I’m trying to say is that no matter what you do or don’t do, during a season of heartbreak, you will hurt, you will feel pain like never before. It’s inevitable, but it’s not impossible to survive.

I’d like to sit here and say I no longer feel pain over my relationship that ended last fall, but I’d be lying to myself. I have fully embraced the fact that God has my best interest in mind, and it still hurts. I have learned to live with it all, to receive God’s grace and let His strength fill me because without it, I’d drown.

Colossians 3:2- “Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things.” This verse has been a constant reminder that fixing your eyes on Jesus can give you that breath of fresh air you’ve been craving because when all you see is your pain, you lose sight of God. Be thankful for the heartache and troubles this world brings because God can use them to grow so many marvelous things in your life!

What’s so cool about pain is that it is temporary AND with every ounce of pain you feel comes a drop of healing. 
I have vivid memories of us and all the times we shared. Memories will last a lifetime, all the good and all the bad. I cherish every single one of them and am thankful for the years we spent together. They changed my entire life and if I could do life all over again, I wouldn’t change a single thing because it has made me into the person I am today.

I want to tell you that whether your heart has just been freshly sliced open, healed, or is currently being sewn back together, Jesus is holding your hand through it all. Jesus was holding your hand before any boy ever did and He will still be holding your hand when a boy is gone. He will NEVER let you drown. I know what it feels like to have your spirit crushed. I know what it’s like to have your boyfriend and best friend taken away from you all at once. It is perfectly okay to not feel okay in any way. I know how many tears you’ve cried and the lonely nights you’ve had. I won’t sugar coat it, it hurts like hell. But GOD IS SO MUCH BIGGER THAN ALL OF THE PAIN you feel. You will survive, you will dance again and you will learn to love again. Remember to lean into Jesus and run through the fields of His grace because that’s where the most beautiful flowers get planted.

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